You don’t apologize for love, make excuses nor hold grudges when the going gets tough. Tread lightly on your actions and words regarding your beloved, it reflects the definition of your being.
-01/24/09
Elle suddenly pulled away realizing she was sitting close and blushing hard. “Listen Jerry,” She gave a pause. “I’ve made a million mistakes in this lifetime and have had to pay for each of them, but you’ve never been one. Yet I still have to pay for breaking us like I did.” Her eyes looked off searching for the words, the kind I was not wanting to hear.
“I’d like to think that we were young artists in love but we were foolish frauds only playing at it. You are and always will be Jerry to me, the boy with stage fright. The gentlemen who holds the door open and the man who taught me heartbreak. I’m forever grateful, but I realized I never loved you. We were just playing out a fantasy. Something we wished for rather than something we actually had.”
She braced herself, waiting for the reaction she expected of me. I however didn’t give in to emotion. I didn’t get upset and tell her I still loved her. I didn’t say I missed our car rides, the daily visits to the coffee shops or our thrift store afternoons. I never told her of the gratitude I felt or the potential I still saw; that she still was the last thought of my every day.
Instead I agreed we were naive and that this was all for the best. Then I changed the subject and asked if she wanted a go at the arcade. With great relief she smiled brightly, accepting. Elle’s smile was always perfect, small lips and just enough teeth.
The evening was going great until we had entered that all too familiar territory; for the moment we were enjoying ourselves like before. I cursed myself for allowing it, reopening wounds is never fun. By the end I was in need of a night-cap.
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He did not know what he could do. He tried to relive memories, forget them and create new ones for himself. Jerry felt forever tarnished, there was a stain that wouldn’t leave his heart. With a broken spirit he concentrated on matters of the mind rather than the heart; to focus on everything other than creatures of the female persuasion. She was a walking trap, a heartbreaker and deal with the devil maker. No one would ever get so far into his skin, he promised that much. But she… she would always be there. “How comforting and disturbing,” he mumbled.
Time slips through cracks, crevices and holes of every kind.
My soul does dwell between matters of the heart and mind.
How does one carry on through his darker days and clear sky nights,
When his wonders fade from what was bright to dimmer lights.
I only need you to set fire again to my more imaginitive thoughts,
To fulfill and inspire what great feelings you once brought.
Only then can I reclaim the man who so proudly stood,
Who did what he must, the one who acted as he should.
